Not a depressing journal entry. I've just the past few days seen some things that amazing the crap out of me and I look at them all and think "Wow I wish I could do that"
Dance.
Write.
Sports.
Act.
Sing.
Picture taking.
Play an instrument.
Draw better.
You all have to admit my drawings are pretty dull...all come out the same in some way or another and yeah. And I already know I can't dance i've tried
I have to cracky of a voice to sing I love the piano and drums BUT I can't i've tried.
I mean it's not making me depressed I just wonder, what will everyone remember me for
Not like "oh you'll be remembered as a great friend"
I know i'm not a 'great' friend i'm pushy and bossy and over react. I know I do it but only after I do. =\ And I really don't wanna be remembered for being the girl that dressed dark. I mean lots of people do. Blah I just have tried alot of things even sports and I fail.
FAAAAAAAAAAAIL
BLAH
I don't want to be some accountant person or something.
I want to be something un-usual.
That people don't normally do I mean there is no way in hell I will act. I have massive stage fright.....as fun as it looks to be able to act. >____> I'm just too scared for alot of things. I mean I have a fear of kisses. And I get too emotional. I hate it >_____<



So at the moment I don't see me in the future as:
Succsessful.
In love.
Or remembered

But thinking on brighter things, I will hope things won't be like that cause no one knows what's to come in life eh? So I was just getting a small thing out. I mean NO

I AM NOT DEPRESSED. O_____O
I'm actually VERY happt right now.
More happy with some things then others....
But that's all dwellings of the past.
So have a cool beans life.